yesterday’s dreams & today’s realities

…..the 2nd part
 
The baby just cries
goo goo ga ga
he wants the bottle
mom just wails out
WHY
they started to soon
16 gave birth
didn’t jump no broom
dad is trippin
bulls piling up
the recession is hitting
HARD
son’s crying loud
but papa’s too proud
to ask for a hand
UP
and
OUT
they’re trying to get
poverty stricken because of tis kid
they fight, kid’s whinin
mom grabs the revolver
she screams
“EVERYBODY’S DYING…”
 
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This is just something I wrote real quick while watching RHOA. It will probably be featured on another blog. There’s a part II to this also.
Here goes…
Move ya body
He pulled her like he wanted a ride
Said saddle up
Paused
Told him grab some protection
For that erection
-then
Slide
Right in, heavy sigh
Calm down
Don’t slap her thigh
Too hard
Its the way he’s [...]

its becoming a lil bit too familiar
this thing called love
we’re slowly falling apart
the nights seems shorter
the days pass
as we lay side by side
no cuddling involved
sleeping on each’s respective side
questions are asked
the replies are questions
tit for tat
its becoming too familiar
emotional abuse
verbally gone bad
physically me
im becoming anger
feeling more like a mom than a gf
titles dont mean shit
each [...]

So my best friend just gave me the new Chrisette Michele “Epiphany” cd. OMG!! I love it! This cd describes everything I’ve been going through. I guess that is the reason she dropped it into my lap.

 
im starting to lose my mind
self, body, spirit.
i feel like im not who i once was
am, could be, or would like to be.
within the depths of my soul
i feel like i have been robbed
true happiness has been stolen
and replaced with a mask
strings attached to arms
gently moving at the puppeteer’s direction

//…I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself in an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to let own self be true…//
i never felt so down about losing friend
i feel like im going through the 7 steps of grieving a [...]

home again
home again
where the cows are curbside
and the pastures grow far
the sun scorches my brown skin
the wasps run me in
but the smell keeps me going back
fresh fruit on the side of the road
bbqs and gatherings
family all together laughing
these summer days
keep me occupied
until i journey back
across the cloud
into cavity land
chocolate city
but for now
im comfortable
in my southern [...]

//…The way your sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
and when I’m awake
staring at pictures of you asleep…//
 
in 2 days I will be departing
and the coldness in my heart
has started to defrost
how will we handle this seperation
who [...]

it started off great
honeymoon stage starts to fade
emotions start to flow heavy
With no label things necome complicated
for the other party involved
texts being read while one lays asleep in the bed.
rage being up because another person interferes
back turns doors slam eyes being to bring tears
the pain placed on each’s fragile heart
knowing this is not how we [...]

//…im a cool low jane
with a skip on my feet
i play tough as nails with
my heart on my sleeve
im nothing but a sandcastle
baby dont blow me away…//
i believe in fate
destiny and soulmates
i believe everything happens for a reason
to break us down, build up, love harder, or stop loving
right now i believe in him
i believe in [...]