[Q]werty

//…I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself in an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to let own self be true…//

i never felt so down about losing friend

i feel like im going through the 7 steps of grieving a death

i wanna scream “its not fair”

but in the end i can only hate myself

mercilessly slice the wrists

with each word

fight the pain

as i plead on my knees

until they bleed

yesterday i wanted to pick up the phone

and talk to you

like old times

but i remembered

that this has been ended

communication has been severed

i really want that old thing back

my life is on the line

for this friendship

i need that old thing back

but as of now

impasse.

//…All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore…//

~ by jaypvbee on June 4, 2009.