i believe in fate
destiny and soulmates
i believe everything happens for a reason
to break us down, build up, love harder, or stop loving
right now i believe in him
i believe in me
and somewhere in the future i believe in an us.
but my feelings are being halted
my heart is guarded
and my eyes cant take anymore
i wanna jump in with both feet
screaming fuck the world
but im hurt
scarred and buised
and with this pain i cant move
i cant let myself be hurt
and i know it wont happen
but what do i really know
i like when we’re together
because nothing is forced
everything blows like the wind
freely falling wherever it pleases
and i like it
i like the cuddling
and the wrestling
his aggressiveness
yet slight protection
deep affection
but right now it seems we’re moving fast
and we both know
that we cant rush
be too quick to touch
cause it may all just be lust
a winter fling
cuddle buddy jumpoff
bedwarmer until spring
disappear and run off
but on the flip side
i feel its real
or could be
compliments not completion
each’s upgrade
but as of now im fragile
this side up
look but dont touch
until i get myself together
there cant be more.

jpvb