yesterday’s dreams & today’s realities

Archive for March 2009

standstill

Posted by: jaypvbee on: March 21, 2009

//…im a cool low jane
with a skip on my feet
i play tough as nails with
my heart on my sleeve
im nothing but a sandcastle
baby dont blow me away…//
i believe in fate
destiny and soulmates
i believe everything happens for a reason
to break us down, build up, love harder, or stop loving
right now i believe in him
i believe in [...]

therelease

Posted by: jaypvbee on: March 12, 2009

omg.
i just wanna scream.
cry,
run. hide.
making im making more of this.
overthing then getting pissed
off my rocker is what im starting to feel.
just walking im ready to break
down, down sugar im going down 
and there’s noone to rescue me
but im used to this kinda treatment.
F U C K!!
this isn’t my life
not what I envisioned at 20
im supposed to [...]

untitled

Posted by: jaypvbee on: March 12, 2009

the pain is increasing
my sanity is pleading
holding on to my last piece of reality
trying to swim in water too deep
im accepting temporary satisfaction
but hurting like fresh contractions
ready to release the pain
all while trying to stay sane
putting on my happy face
just so things dont seem displaced
crying behind this vivid smile
’suicidal thoughts’ ‘ready to die’
biggie shit banging [...]

solongfarewell

Posted by: jaypvbee on: March 8, 2009

All good things do come to an end. Sooner or later so where along the line lines sever,tears fall,people hurt. But in the end you learn to get over it. It seems like everyone I jhave been talking to these days have been losing a “friend”. I’ve lost a friend maybe two. And truth be [...]