superbowl XLIV

so its the superbowl.

#geauxsaints!

i should be cheering but i feel and look like this:

264

sometimes you can work it out

 sometimes you can’t.

sometimes you’re forced to watch everything fall apart

its out of your hands.

 

-jpvb

blah

its almost been a week.

him im missing dearly.

these other niggas pressing me out.

trynna learn the language

my lips make when my thighs divide.

but im his.

i see no one else.

and this is the one.

mono

gamous

til we see each other

blah.

-jpvb

ithasntevenbeenaday

and i feel like this

youbeenstungjack

its funny how the tables turn.
you think I don’t know.
but I know everything
when you get your $
we’ll be through
right?
E X A C T L Y
so tomorrow
sayanora
Ill be dead
like you hoped for

-jpvb

fakeit

I fake everything. E V E R Y T H I N G! ! ! Happiness and all. If you ever see me with a smile its a FAKE. Over the years I’ve gotten pretty good at it. Rather fake a smile during the day and cry in the darkness. Don’t ask me what’s wrong? I’m fine. Even though I’m really not. Ill figure it out. I’m mildy depressed. I can’t really fake that but idk. I wish there was a happy trigger. Or a map that led to a happy trail. I need it. Until then I’ll fake it till its real.

-jpvb

stupidity:ivelostit

I never thought I’d become such a stupid female.

If I had a gun, I’d shoot myself in the foot.

Cause I deserve it.
-jpvb

*sigh*ohhowipray

I’ve been writing a lot today. So much has been going on. This is my release of pain. From the relapses I’ve taken. Sometimes I just wanna cry so I fucking cry. I get so upset with myself because I allowed people to get the best of me. WHY? I just need a few words of encouragement. I try so hard to not let it get to me and it does. *sigh* oh how I pray. I pray for peace, forgiveness, and understanding. I know I’m growing and this sucks it absolutely sucks. I feel like I’m just so naïve to certain things in this world tht other people are so familiar with and when I’m truthfully oblivious all of a sudden I’m a liar. *sigh* oh how I pray. I pray for clarity and serenity. I pray the serenity prayer. The one india aire sings. She gets me through. On days like this when it seems nothing good can come from the rest. *sigh* oh how I pray. I’m gonna stop praying the same things because I heard that mean that I’m being ungrateful and impatience. As if God didn’t hear me the first time. I know it’ll get better. LORD knows I know it’ll get better. This is only a trial so once its all over ill have a TESTIMONY!!! Until then *sigh* I pray.

-jpvb

freeyourmind

www.formspring.me/FREkotoriNCH

jaded

you’re STILL talking to that girl
she thinks you’re her boyfriend
she wrote:
*I♥mybfrb*
hmmm
but i’m no fool
do what you do
thought you could have your cake
and eat it too
won’t matter anyway
ill be leaving soon

-jpvb